I want to take you for one more walk, cuddle with you one more time

My sweetest Phil,

How did it happen? How is it possible that I’m still here, but you are not? You know you were everything to me. I told you so many times when were cuddling, that you are my whole world. But then you left me. I know it’s not your fault, but I have so much anger in me, I can barely function. You know I never had good relationship with my family or my friends. I always felt like you are the only one who understands me. Now I feel like I have no one. No one! I am sorry, I wanted to write this letter to tell you how much I miss you, not to blame you, because you did more than anyone ever did. But I really cannot be happy without you, Phil. I don’t know what to do, what I am supposed change, how am I supposed to smile and be happy like everyone tells me? Honestly, I don’t even care about what they think, so I am not sure why I am even mentioning to you.

I have to stop now, because this letter is probably not telling you everything that you don’t know already, but know - I loved you more than I can handle. Please come to me in my dreams - I am hoping for it every night before I go to sleep. I just want to feel you again next me in bed, I want to cuddle you and take you on walks without a leash which made so happy. You see, sometimes I feel like maybe it’s my fault you had to go. I wanted to give you so much freedom, always! You know you could do everything in our little home, it was your home. You know that when everyone reminded me to keep you on a leash I never wanted to, because I trusted you so much, like you trusted me. I wanted you to be so happy with me that you’d never leave me. And now… Please - I want to take you for one more walk, cuddle with you one more time. Please come to me in my dreams. I need it so much.

I miss you. I love you.

Yours forever, like you will always be mine,

Macey