If there's a way for you to hear these words from beyond

My Dearest Mum,

As I sit down to pen this letter, I'm overwhelmed with a profound sense of regret and longing. Our last conversation about motherhood weighs heavily on my heart, and I want to express the feelings I couldn't find the words for in that moment.

That day, when frustration and fatigue colored my words, I want you to know it wasn't a true reflection of how I feel about you as a mother. It was a bad day, Mum, a day when life's burdens seemed too heavy to bear. In my exhaustion, I allowed stress to cloud my judgment and affect the way I spoke to you.

Now, as I replay that conversation in my mind, I ache to turn back time, to revisit that moment and choose my words with the love and respect you deserved. You were not just a perfect mother; you were an extraordinary one. Your love, your sacrifices, and your unwavering support shaped the person I am today.

I want to express my deep regret for any hurt my words may have caused. If only I could come back to that moment, I would wrap you in the gratitude and appreciation that I feel for you. It was a moment of weakness, not a true reflection of the boundless love and admiration I have for you.

Though you're no longer here with me, I find solace in the memories of the love we shared. I can't change the past, but I hope this letter serves as a testament to the deep love and admiration I have for you. If there's a way for you to hear these words from beyond, I hope they reach you, carrying the love and remorse that fills my heart.

With love, regret, and an eternal longing,

Harper